so many days, so many times- all this, everything seems so
unreal. like it is all a dream. what does it matter anyway,
all this - this world is sucha scary, unforgiving place. each
morning i watcht the sunrise. i see the brilliance of G*d's
mighty hand, and i think to myself, 'do others see what
i see, do others feel what i feel?' am i the only one?
then i feel selfish - and i know the world doesn't revolve
around me. and G*d gently reminds me that i am not alone.
but then i ache inside, i feel so much anguish - i ask him why?
why L*rd d so many suffer? why is there so much pain, so much
hate? why do we get so wrapped up in our own little piece of
the world, that we forget that we are but one tiny speck, on
little grain in a sea of humanity - millions suffering - hundreds
die each day, even more than those are broken hearted, filled
with pain.
what about these L*rd? who cares for them? who wipes the tears
from their cheeks - who embraces their wounded hearts?
so much greif, so much pain. the children L*rd? who is supposed
to protect them - who watches over those suffering from comfortless
neglect? who gaurds their minds from endless profanity, evil?
who sheilds them from the predators that prey on their innocence
their weakness, their relentless hope to please?
there are so many L*rd, it breaks my heart - why? why L*rd? why
do so many have to suffer? why do they have to endure so much pain?
they didn't want this L*rd, they just wanted someone, anyone to
show how they cared.
i feel as though my wings have been clipped, my talons hobbled.
trapped. i see the light, i plan for escape, but fear overtakes
me. i don't know what it is like on the outside. and i hear
those voices telling me ' you can't do it - you are stuck here.'
'you are a fool if you think you can fly, so go on and hide in
this dark cage's shadows, don't even try.'
'you tried once before; they whisper - and remember what happened,
you failed, your wings weren't strong enough, and you plunged
back to earth like a stone, sinking, sinking, so low.'
despair floods over me, rendering me helpless - remembering the
time i tried before, and how it was all in vain... no more can i
again endure that pain.
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